time

wow i really suck at blogging. or documenting. whatever this is called. i guess after november started it was just a hell of a month and a half with my final project in full force and finals and college in general. 

i need to work out my priorities and time management or something? i'm so bad at everything, i end up half-assing most things. 

time. 

it's such a hard concept to wrap your head around. you always need more time, but you have all the time in the world. time keeps on going whether you want it to or not. time doesn't stand still. time is always moving and you have to move with it. or else you'll be left behind.

and i keep ignoring my personal problems. i feel like all of those have fallen through because of my inactivity. my lack of proactivity. but also because it's my habit to keep everything bottled up and locked away. i need to face things head on -- i've been trying to but i keep giving up half way.

maggie, get your shit together!!!

well, i'm so glad i'm on winter break now, that's for sure.

eat things no. 3

all i do is eat

korean food is my weakness

made my own japchae - turned out pretty well!

sunday indulgences...

eat ALL the green tea things!!

i live to eat

halloween

i always try to go the clever route with halloween costumes, and this year was no exception. it took me a while to come up with it but i think it turned out pretty well in the end.

butterfly in the sky, i can go twice as high

i think it should be pretty obvious right? i was a reading rainbow! a rainbow...who's reading! in honor of the show being revived, y'know? i know the theme song by heart.

anyway, besides the costume, this halloween was one of the better ones. instead of going to the parties, we went shabu shabu! and then we karaoke'd the night away. my voice was so raspy after those three hours (it still is).

i see: ribbons

seen a few days ago

draw things no. 2

note to self

love me

went on a little field trip to the eric owen moss studio in culver city today. stumbled upon this giant curtis kulig wall piece. took a few fangirl pictures in front of it. 

let's say this is an "outfit of the day", although there's nothing particularly wow! so stylish about it.

 asiangirlsstandinginfrontofgraffiti.tumblr.com

a contemporary rain dance in front of a contemporary graffiti art piece

top: forever 21 | cardigan: h&m | jeans: gap | bag: h&m | sandals: nordstrom rack

i love me!

(getting there, at least)

still life no. 2

it's been a tiring week so far, but here are a few snapshots of recent happenings. though maybe not-so-recent because i haven't been outside much as it is midterms season. two more to go, maggie.

i didn't get any ice cream :(

late night cross-hatching

racks on racks on racks...of spices

squish the rainbow

finally finished this project i've been hacking at for the past month. it was so painful. but i'm quite proud of my end result (for once)! i pulled my first all-nighter of the semester for it. i had not eaten for 24 hours (let alone slept) so after the review i went back to my apartment and reheated some curry. scarfed it down a little too quickly. the curry tasted a little sour after a few days in the fridge but i was too hungry and tired to care. so far my stomach has been okay with it. after that, i proceeded to reunite with my bed, i let out a great cry of joy, pulled over the covers and fell into a deep slumber for 16 hours. yes. 16 hours.

anyway! now to enjoy a little more r&r before i start my next project and before i continue studying for my last two midterms. alas.

eat things no. 2

made a killer grilled cheese the other day. used whole wheat bread (gotta keep it somewhat healthy, right? heh), sharp cheddar, salami, and a little bit of mozzarella. i'm salivating just thinking about it again.

i guess i'll just keep thinking about it as i finish my final drawings for my project. i just need to get over this hump. to more grilled cheeses!

smile

taking baby steps toward loving myself. 

so here's a message to me.

you don't smile enough in pictures. embrace your smile, maggie. no matter how imperfect it is, i know you're still trying to figure out who you are and what you want to be, but being so down on yourself all the time isn't good for you. i know you're trying your best to fix your mistakes, but mistakes are going to be made no matter how hard you try. stop living in the past and accept them. smile it off. laugh it off. you're the happiest and most beautiful when you smile. so please, smile more. 

stressful

it's been a really stressful week so far. 

i'm running in circles around my project and i'm still not sure where it's going. and it's due in a week. i know i should be getting more independent since i'm not a freshman anymore, but i still need some guidance, y'know. i'm still a newbie! i basically wasted my entire last week because my instructor didn't even talk to me/discuss with me about the direction of my project. this is some precious time wasted. and i'm really annoyed because this has left me so behind and scrambling to get it together. i mean, i admit, i was being a little lazy last week, but i really don't know what i would have done to my drawings otherwise.

existential architecture crisis??? representation of my current jumbled mind

i got to talk to her today for like 5 minutes at the end of class because she felt she didn't need to talk to me, having spent the whole four hour class talking to only a handful of students she thought needed help. but then i show her what i have and she says "she has to think about it"?! why couldn't you think about it with me during class? it's clear that i need help, after basically starting all over on monday!!! i'm stuck at where i should've been a week ago! if she'd given me a little more attention/advice last week, i would be far past this by now...agh, i'm so frustrated.

i only have a week to pull this altogether...AND next week is midterms week. man i really hope i pull through. can't wait to get it all over with.

just needed to vent out my negativity.

think positive, maggie, think positive. happy thoughts...

eat things no. 1

recent consumptions.

 rainbow peppers

 the best ice cream flavor in the world

hot diggity dog

i swear i'm trying to be healthy.

draw things no. 1

drew this late last night after a shower. going to give it to my friend who recently got me into young the giant. been listening to cough syrup way too much in the past 48 hours.

trying to get better at hand lettering. this took me around 2 hours, i think?

lashes

thought my lashes looked nice today for once!

(mascara: maybelline full n soft)

still life no. 1

felt the need to document my life via the interwebz. i mean, i used to have another blog, but it was just not me. so i'm using this as some sort of personal journey/discovery of sorts. here we go!

recent snapshots of happenings in my life.

sundays are for pancakes.

we meet again, gensler.

i eat my weight in rice and kimchi.

gave this dude a flower crown.

breaking in a new shirt.

kind of excited where this "blog" takes me. hoping i can keep up with it!